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La Boulange de Hayes

Saturday, March 5, 2011

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by choice we became friends

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.

Today was a great day. Hayes Valley was the destination and we dined at La Boulange de Hayes. It was an afternoon of indulgence. I ate a petite salmon and spinach quiche, turkey and cranberry sandwich and sipped on fresh lemonade. Shy had a flank sandwich with a side of chips. We talked and ate and talked more about the future and life. Suddenly, we craved something sweet. I had a vanilla tea with milk and Shy had a hot chocolate. It was just such a delightful afternoon in a quaint neighborhood. We watched the sky change color and then the evening arrived upon us and we headed back to the less than ideal downtown neighborhood. Then I rushed to One Pigment Cosmetics to see my friend Alyssa Nicole present her Spring 2011 collection. More on that later.

Tomorrow marks the first of very many Analog Sundays, I hope. But I will take one or a few photos of my Sunday for the blog and that will be the extent of my computer time. After I randomly googled magnolias one day, I came across these beautiful watercolor paintings by Christie's Watercolors and Shy suggested we do some painting. If you haven't noticed already, I am in love with flowers. Currently, my favorite flowers are blush pink peonies and roses, green hydrangeas and mums and pink poppies and craspedias. I'm going to paint pink poppies. I bought some food for tomorrow for our little painting party: crackers, goat cheese, dried cranberry, prosciutto, raspberries and apple cider. We'll listen to some oldies like Frank Sinatra, Bobby Darin and Edith Piaf. Sounds like the perfect first Analog Sunday to me.

& thanks to Miss Moss for mentioning my blog. It made my day, since her blog is one of my new discoveries and favorite blogs.

la boulange de hayes
la boulange de hayes
fresh lemonade
salmon and spinach quichetableau à quatre

The Science of Today is the Technology of Tomorrow

Friday, March 4, 2011

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my gadgets

Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.” ― Arthur C. Clarke

From the dawn of time, technology was a simple concept. In the Paleolithic Age, early humans used stones and other tools as a form of weapon to hunt. Early humans were already creating art, drawings, large scale monuments and earthworks as a form of communication, such as cave paintings discovered in the Lascaux caves in France, Nazca Lines in Peru and the Stonehenge in Wiltshire, England to name a few. I was watching a documentary on human evolution, it was explained that when the homo erectus eventually evolved into the homo sapiens, the jaws of the homo erectus shrunk allowing the size of the cranium to increase, therefore allowing the brain to increase in size too. This change was caused by a mutation, which eventually allowed the homo sapiens to develop speech, language and communication with other homo sapiens. Communication allowed them to gather and help each other to build networks. How fascinating?

The great monuments in the world such as the Stonehenge, the Great Pyramids of Giza, the Parthenon, cathedrals in Europe still stir up some great emotions within me. I am in awe of these wonderful structures and wonder how did people build these structures at the time they were built? How on earth did those people build the Stonehenge? Those stones weigh 20-25 tons and the stones of the pyramids weigh 2 tons each. Considering how long is still takes to construct a building nowadays, I cannot begin to imagine how much time it took to build these early structures. I hope to visit all these monuments one day and take way too many photos.

Now we live in a world where technology is vital. Our lives revolve around technology and our gadgets. Everyone has a cellphone, whether it be an iPhone or Blackberry; we are constantly trying to connect to people around us. Facebook and Twitter are constantly on our minds, because we are obsessed with communication. Which makes me wonder why are we more communicative with people that are far away and not to the people right next to us. There are people who are in the company of their friends and they could be preoccupied with texting or Facebook or games. Which reminds me of the story of a mother who was bathing her 13 month old baby and she left the baby alone to play some Facebook game. The baby drowned. And another story of a 22 year old mother who shook her baby to death after interrupting her Farmville game. I am so disgusted and heartbroken by these acts of irresponsibility.

Technology helps us grow as an economy and society, but technology has the potential to be so lethal. When the Industrial Revolution commenced, the world saw the invention of Cotton spinning using Richard Arkwright's water frame, James Hargreaves's Spinning Jenny, and Samuel Crompton's Spinning Mule (a combination of the Spinning Jenny and the Water Frame), the improved steam engine invented by James Watt. While the Industrial Revolution marks a major turning point in human history, it led to large scale production of chemical pollution (portrayed beautifully in Monet's Impression, Sunrise) and child labor, chronic hunger and malnutrition, which mainly affected the population in England and France. With all this hardship, the world has advanced into a Modern Age of even more deadly technology: mass production of weapons, the Vicker's machine gun, armored tanks and the Farman and Voison aircraft.

World War I marks the first war that introduced lethal weapons. British writer H. G. Wells lamented the fate of humanity at the hands of "man's increasing power of destruction" (H. G. Wells, "Civilization at the Breaking Point," New York Times, May 27, 1915, 2). Before, infantry warfare depended upon hand-to-hand combat, but World War I popularized the use of machine guns and other forms of weaponry. The wars since have elevated leading to the invention of nuclear weapons, which have been detonated twice offensively on Hiroshima on August 6th and Nagasaki on August 8th, 1945. In 1947, Albert Einstein quoted "I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones." This quote scares me immensely for our future generations: my future children and their children. After the invention of flying was achieved, man had to supersede flight and leave the atmosphere, which leads to Space Exploration.

When flight was achieved, the world was in awe, since dream of flight dates back to the days of pre-history. Then space exploration became the new dream, therefore commencing the Space Race between the Soviet Union and the United States. Since then man has landed on the moon, and now they have been trying to get back to the moon by conceptualizing and developing a space elevator. Who knows when this will happen? Since our current level of technology is not capable of manufacturing such materials to build an Earth-based elevator to the moon. The concept is extraordinary, but we might not be able to see this invention on our lifetime.

Technology is constantly being improved for the betterment of society. Right now, we are defined by what gadgets we own. Are you a Mac person or a PC person? Do you have a smartphone? Do you own an iPhone or a Blackberry? Do you have all the cool apps on your phone? How many Facebook friends do you have? We are so consumed and even controlled by all this technology that sometimes we aren't aware of the power of modern technology. These big companies are huge monopolies and they have so much power, because we give them the power, because advertising manipulates us without our knowledge. Maybe some people are aware of it, but some people are probably completely oblivious to the fact that we are being manipulated into thinking we have control, but we don't.

I read some article about Battle: Los Angeles (read it if you're interested) and how ufology experts say that the film is based on fact. Growing up, I always believed in extraterrestrial activity. How can we be the only beings in this universe? Wouldn't that be a little narcissistic of us? I do believe that there are other beings out there and they might even look just like us or they could look like the aliens in District 9 or even the aliens in Monsters vs. Aliens or Paul (voiced by Seth Rogen)! Why not? (I will not say Alien, because I can't watch those movies!!!) I genuinely believe aliens do not want to attack and invade Earth (God, I hope I'm not wrong!). If aliens had the technology to travel light years and land on Earth, why the hell would they want our planet that even doesn't have technology that is comparable to theirs? Yes, we have a beautiful atmosphere that allows us to breathe, we have water and greenery and even some beautiful people and animals, but seriously? Why Earth? Go home and stop taunting us with your unidentified flying objects!

Aliens have always been fascinating to me, but I cannot stand Hollywood's interpretations and portrayal of aliens, because they're so ugly and unsightly, I cannot stand to look at them. So I usually avoid watching those alien movies and read up on them from time to time. According to the article, Colonel Halt speculates that the government does have a contingency plan for an alien attack, but they have contingency attacks prepared for everything. That said, he's doubtful any of those plans would work and if (big IF) there ever was ever an alien attack, we would not win. How depressing.

Not only do we have alien attacks looming in the back of our minds, but we also have 2012 to consider? I'm sure global warming is a factor to the destruction of our planet. The Mayans calculated the end of the world will occur on December 21st, 2012! The Mayans aren't the only ones that predicted the occurrence of a doomsday. There are multiple theories as to how and why the world will come to an end. Alignments of the planets, geomagnetic reversal, a big comet crashing the earth leading to a huge tsunami wiping off the entire human and animal population. Rogue planets colliding with Earth (thanks Melancholia and Lars von Trier). So we're living in a world where there is war, poverty, famine, AIDS, rape, murder, genocides, freak accidents, torture and now we also have to consider that the world is coming to an end too? How much do we have to deal with?

If we're still alive and it's December 22nd, 2012, we should all celebrate and pop a bottle (or a few bottles) of champagne or in my case grape juice. We should party at my place (hopefully I'll be living in some nice affordable loft in Brooklyn or small studio in Manhattan). This leads to me to why I even wrote this hefty post about technology. A few days ago, I decided to name and rename some of my gadgets. Can you believe I wrote this ridiculously long and serious post about technology, but the whole time it was all about how I named my gadgets? Yes, I did. Back in 2004, when I got my first laptop, I decided to name it. I mean why not? I named him Bobby, because I was in love with Bobby in Scary Movie (yes I know, I'm a dork). I named my thumb drive Scotty after Eurotrip, iPod after David from Simple Plan and consequently, named my new iPod Coco Chanel and other names I can't remember now. When I got my Mac Book Pro in December 2009, I never named it, because I had no reason. A few days ago, I decided it was time to name my gadgets again. So here are the names:

Mac Book Pro: Lavender
1.5 TB Hard drive: Hydrangea
iPhone: Olive
Canon Rebel T2i: Clover
Canon 50mm f/1.8 Lens: Lilac
Thumb drive: Thumbelina
SD Card 16GB: Saffron
SD Card 16GB (Video): Violette

Once in a while, you need to have some fun lightheartedness in your daily life to remind yourself of the small pleasures in life (thanks Amélie). Amidst all the devastation in the world, it is easy to forget to enjoy life and cherish all the good things we have. We should enjoy life while we can before it's too late. I want to thank technology for allowing me to blog about my thoughts. But at the same time, technology has been the death of many people and it frightens me. We rely so much on technology that sometimes we don't know how to enjoy life without phones, laptops, Facebook, Twitter, etc. I'm going to try to observe Analog Sunday from now on. Although, I do want to take one photo of something I did on Sunday and post it and that's the extent of my computer time on Sunday. Besides that, no email, no Facebook and no phone (unless someone calls me). Instead, I will read, take photos, take a walk if the weather permits it, watch a movie, go to a museum or gallery, paint and keep a Sunday journal.

Do you name your gadgets and toys? What does technology mean to you? Here's a link to the time of historical inventions. Next post about technology? Time travel.

"It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has exceeded our humanity. - Albert Einstein

analog sunday #1

Boyfriend Criteria or Things I Like That You Could Do to Be My Boyfriend

Thursday, March 3, 2011

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boyfriend criteria

Previously (as in a few weeks ago), I mentioned the "perfect guy". Well everyone's definition of the "perfect guy" varies and in my case, my "perfect guy" would have to fulfill several requirements. Inspired by Katie Turner's Boyfriend Criteria, I decided to write my own list of boyfriend requirements as a reminder to myself and to you guys. If you find him, please send him my way. Thanks in advance!

#1. Glasses. I dig guys that wear glasses and really wears glasses like me.
#2. Tea. I'm a huge tea person, drink tea with me... or else.
#3. Tennis. If you don't like tennis, then don't bother at all. If you like tennis, but prefer Nadal over Federer, don't ever talk to me again.
#4. Spicy food and rare beef. If you can't eat either, then just don't...
#5. Dancing. I love musicals and Grease and Dirty Dancing, I want a man who can and loves to dance.
#6. Catdog. I love cats and I love dogs. Can't decide, so he better like both too.
#7. Acoustic guitar. Okay, any guy who can play the acoustic guitar can have my heart, as long as he fulfills the other requirements too.
#8. Bass guitar. Yes, I've always had a thing for bassists (David Desrosiers, Scott Pilgrim), that's why I took up the bass guitar (even though I haven't touched it in years... damn).
#9. Wear bow ties, ties and hats. Chuck Bass, enough said.
#10. Cook. A real man can cook. Seriously.
#11. Travel. If he doesn't like to travel, if he's not spontaneous or adventurous... stay home, don't call me, don't bother at all. It's over.
#12. Woody Allen. Just be him or love him as much as I do.

After examining my specific list of requirements, I am absolutely positive that I will NOT meet this guy, because he does not exist. I have extremely high standards, how can anyone possibly live up to my expectations? I don't know. Everyone has their own standards and I have unachievable standards. Please note: when I say I have "exceptionally high standards", this means I am attracted to a certain man, who is not the conventional handsome good looking type. I am by no means attracted to that kind of man. In fact, I'm rather attracted to the boyish medium looking kind of guy, someone who is not too rugged, handsome, pretty or even cute. When I'm walking on the streets, I try not to make eye contact, but now and then, I will look around to see what the guys look like. I have yet to scout a remotely attractive male in San Francisco. I think my entire time I've been here (since August 2007), I've only scouted at most four or five attractive men - how depressing.

I've realized that most "cute" and "attractive" guys are already taken... so what chance do I have? No chance whatsoever. It's not that I'm looking to be with someone, but it's just a general observation for me - there are no cute guys in San Francisco. When I look at a guy, I look at the whole package *cough*. I scan them from head to toe: 1) hair 2) hair color 3) glasses? 4) smile 5) height 6) build 7) clothes 8) shoes, etc. I don't think I stand a chance or rather, no guy in San Francisco stands a chance. Once again, how depressing?

But for now, I'm happy just being by myself and building myself back. I am an independent woman and I would rather be independent than compromise that if I were in a relationship. I was at Borders and I picked up Why Men Fall Out of Love and read the introduction and the first two chapters hoping to discover something that will enlighten me. Was I enlightened? Well, I'm not entirely sure, because I understand why people fall out of love in general, but why don't people try to resolve the problems? Why do people give up so easily? That's my question.

I suppose I only read the beginning of the book; I suppose there is a more comprehensive explanation and observation towards the end of the book. The book examines and explains the complexity of men and their inability to communicate their emotions, especially when conflicts start to arise in their relationships. Women are more comfortable with expressing their displeasure with their significant other, whereas men just keep it to themselves and stay in the relationship, due to fear of the unknown. Statistically, women initiate a divorce in two out of three marriages. Whereas, men stay in the relationship until the conflicts become too much. I hope I will never initiate a divorce, that said, I hope I will get married in the first place, that said, I hope someone will propose to me in the first place, that said, I hope I will meet someone in the first place. So many that saids.

I guess I thought the book could have offered me a little wisdom and insight into the male psyche and hopefully it will help me in the future if and when I get into a relationship. According to the book, if you're about to begin a relationship with a man, there are three questions to ask before you become emotionally involved. First, what is (or was) his relationship with his mother? Second, what is his definition of masculinity? Third, how does he deal with his failures and setbacks? I wonder if all men just think the same? Do these three questions define all men?

Whatever physical or superficial requirement I have for a potential boyfriend, I think the most important thing is that he, whoever he is, he must have the ability to communicate his thoughts, his dreams, his fears. If a relationship has no communication, then why be in a relationship at all? I guess I can never go into any relationship with anticipation of the future, because life is just so unpredictable. I just hope I will have the chance to be in a relationship with a decent human being, who is strong enough to care about me and himself and the rest of the world.

Tarot, Egyptology & Other Mysticisms

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

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universal waite tarot deck

I would not consider myself a superstitious person at all. In fact, I don't believe in superstition, but I absolutely believe in Karma (in Indian religions is the concept of "action" or "deed", understood as that which causes the entire cycle of cause and effect (i.e., the cycle called saṃsāra) originating in ancient India and treated in Hindu, Jain, Buddhist and Sikh philosophies. - Wikipedia). But recently and when I say recently I mean in the last few years and in more recent months, I've developed an interest in mythology, tarot cards, Egyptology and astrology. My interest in Egyptology first began with The Mummy. Yes, it sounds almost frivolous, but I think that aspect of the franchise really got me fascinated about The Book of the Death and the Egyptian gods and the Afterlife. It's all very educational and with partial credit to The Prince of Egypt too. Then I took a class called Power of Myth and Symbol last semester and learned all these creation stories and Greek mythology and now I'm obsessed.

As superficial as this seems, I always thought tarot cards were pretty. And after watching Scoop, I decided I wanted to own a deck of Tarot cards. So I bought my very first Universal Waite Pocket Tarot Deck from Borders yesterday. When I first mentioned my interest in Tarot on facebook, my friend Jamie immediately responded with enthusiasm and excitement. She urged me to get a friend to buy me my first deck, due to energy or something. But after some discussion, I decided I would just purchase it myself. The illustrations are by Pamela Colman Smith. I am in love with this deck, it is exactly what I envisioned for my first deck. I was also enticed by a Golden Botticelli and Klimt Tarot Deck, but they were a little overpriced, but I shall consider them in the future.

Life is a mysterious and mystical experience. It's hard to rationalize certain events in life, but no matter what has happened or what will happen, I believe in one constant - being a good human being. I'm one single human being and I realize my acts of kindness cannot change the world, but I really believe in Karma. My belief in Karma has nothing to do with my non existent religious background. I never had a religious upbringing, so my desire to be a good person is self-realized. This doesn't mean I consider myself the nicest person in the world, but I want to believe I have the ability to be good, so why not be good all the time? I do not consider myself a saint by any means. Of course, not. Sometimes I curse and maybe you'll be lucky enough to witness my bouts of ungraceful behavior. All in all, I want to live life as guilt free as possible. Admittedly, that is impossible, since I can spend hours thinking about how unfair life is.

When I say unfair... I don't mean "oh damn, I don't have an iPad, that's so unfair." No, I mean, look what's going on in Egypt and Libya. Now that is unfair. There is so much discrimination and hatred. After reading and watching John Galliano's antisemitic slurs, I was completely disgusted and heartbroken. I don't understand how some people are defending his actions, but Dior has taken action and fired him already. With all these unfairness in the world, I've realized that I really should enjoy life and educate myself to become a better and well-rounded human being.

That's why I've decided to take up tarot cards and I want to learn more about mythology and astrology. I think I'm just beginning to connect to my inner self and embracing spirituality, but not in a religious way. I don't believe in a God necessarily, but I believe that there is some kind of higher power that gives us a reason to live. I don't think that life is by chance or at random and I definitely don't believe in destiny. I think my belief lies in between the two. I don't think I need a solid purpose to life as such, I just want to enjoy life, be a good person and help others.

universal waite tarot deck
universal waite tarot deck

Blossoms, Hydrangeas & Cats

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

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essentials #1

Doesn't it feel amazing to just buy flowers for yourself and stroll around a city on a beautiful day, even though it was a little chilly - the flowers made it better. Plum blossoms and hydrangeas. Monday was just a delightful day of errand running and strolling. Since I'll be departing this city, I decided to walk around and explore different routes to my bank in the Financial District. Admittedly, the architecture in San Francisco is quite random at times. Mostly dominated by Victorian buildings and some Art Deco buildings in the Financial District, but some buildings are just unsightly. Luckily, not as hideous at the buildings in Hangzhou, China.

I've always had an appreciation for architecture. Hey, wait, it seems like I have a huge appreciation for many things. But seriously, I love architecture, but don't know too much about it. I never wanted to study architecture, since I don't have the passion for designing buildings AND I don't like Mathematics and Physics. But, I've always love the history of architecture. I'm still not fully knowledgeable with my history, but I try to learn about the main landmarks and famous buildings on the world. Also, Joseph Gordon Levitt's character in (500) Days of Summer and Ted Mosby in How I Met Your Mother have really gotten me into architecture and even architects (Sex Architect)!

After I've finished reading the pile of new books I just acquired, I want to pick up The Happiness of Architecture by Alain de Bottom; it was the book that Tom was reading throughout (500) Days of Summer. If the weather gets slightly warmer, I would love to spend an afternoon in the park reading and laughing to myself and attracting unwanted attention. I remember in the fall of 2008, I would spend hours at Yerba Buena Gardens, attempting to take photos with my Nikon FE2 and read. I would buy myself a Gerbera daisy and bask under the wonderful fall sun. It was delightful. However, I don't think March will bring some warm sunshine.

It's Spring Break in two weeks! And I'm going back to Hong Kong for ten days. It's going to be brutal in terms of jet lag, but I think it will be a nice little change for a short time. I should be able to enjoy a few days of warmer weather and maybe finally take some photos of Hong Kong. Since I've had my Canon, I just haven't had the chance to take photos of Hong Kong. I would just be too busy meeting friends and dining with the family, I wouldn't have the opportunity to just go about and roam the city and take photos. Spring Break will be my chance to be behind the camera.

I had every intention of sitting in a quiet café for lunch, enjoying a ham and prosciutto sandwich and reading my Anthology of Love Poems and/or Mere Anarchy, but I bumped into a friend. I think I will get into the habit of carrying around my books, so whenever I have a quiet moment to myself, I'll catch up on my reading. Even though, I've recently become bitter about relationships or rather the concept of relationships, I'm still very optimistic about love. Reading love poems has made me more optimistic and romantic - they make my heart feel like bursting. This is a good beginning to a great week.

blossoms, hydrangeas & cats
plum blossoms
hydrangeas
blossoms, hydrangeas & cats
plum blossoms & hydrangeas
blackberries