Somebody That I Used To Know

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

For the longest time I didn't understand why this song was so popular. I kept hearing about this new song called Somebody That I Used To Know by Gotye. What was the big deal? Then I finally listened to it and I still didn't know what the big deal was? I added that album to my Spotify and then I started to listen to the album, or at least the first few songs. But today, all of a sudden for no reason, I decided to play the song and then I was really listening to the lyrics and finally realized what the song was about! Where the hell was I? I never really thought twice about the title and I never tried to listen to the lyrics... And now I know. Now I know.

This song is beautiful and hauntingly honest. Fortunately for me, I have made the conscious decision to not deal with this or rather not invite another opportunity into my life, just to feel this exact way again. I don't want to know someday I used to know. I think this song was able to address something that we all think about past relationships and it was presented in such a beautiful song and music video. Strangely enough, this was an issue I attempted to address in my first draft of Shyness. I tried to discuss it via one of my characters, I didn't express it successfully or eloquently, so I'll just have to wait - it will have to wait. But for now, I'll just have to play this song on repeat. Thank you.

Gotye stated that the song was "definitely drawn from various experiences I've had in relationships breaking up, and in the parts of the more reflective parts of the song, in the aftermath and the memory of those different relationships and what they were and how they broke up and what's going on in everyone's minds. Yeah, so it's an amalgam of different feelings but not completely made up as such".[12] In an interview with Rolling Stone (Australia), he described the song as "a curated reflection of multiple past relationships", but revealed the chorus was directly related to one ex-girlfriend "it wasn't a nasty break-up, but it was messy in the sense that we hurt each other more than we needed to because it wasn't a clean break ... We both realized we had to move on and we haven't seen each other since".[13]

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
I told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness  
Like resignation to the end, always the end 
So when we found that we could not make sense  
Well you said that we would still be friends  
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing 
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know 

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

Goran Ivanisevic

Friday, July 27, 2012

watp crazy

(This is long overdue, my apologies, boys!)

I've been in love with this amazing band called We Are The Physics since April 2007. Admittedly, I only discovered this band via 30 Seconds To Mars. And whilst my love for 30 Seconds To Mars faded rapidly, my obsession with We Are The Physics grew and blossomed into a frenzy, a crazy, music stalking phase. It was short-lived, due to my relocating to San Francisco in August 2007. After five years, I'm still in love with their music and aesthetic and I'm still waiting eagerly for the day they tour in the U.S.

The funny thing is I never understood or enjoyed Physics in school, because it was too abstract and theoretical for my underachiever mind back then. And now? Well, I'm incredibly fascinating by physics: theoretical, experimental, cosmological, expanding to philosophical, etc. I'm currently reading A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawkings, I love The Big Bang Theory, I want to get a tattoo inspired by the paradoxical theory of Schrödinger's cat.

Not only are they (Michael! Michael! Michael! Chris!) super talented and amazing performers, they are incredibly funny and down-to-earth and friendly! I can't wait till the day I see them again! But for now, I'll watch this music video on repeat. Enjoy!

Everything is really falling into place. I love physics! And I love tennis! I love We Are The Physics!

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I try, I fail
I fail, I try
To fail is art
To art is fail
I try, I fail

The past speaks volumes, volumes that we’ll never read
It’s safe, safe to say, safe to say we’ll never breed
Self-belief is not something we like to feed
We like to feed, yeah, we like defeat

The past, well, it says less to us
Less than vacuous tongues that lap, lapping safely
Pressing faded marks into global crotches, yeah, global crotches
This transitory stain that disappears again

Wasting hours of my time doing star jumps in the gym
All to have, all to have a body like him
Wasting hours of my time doing star jumps in the gym
All to have, all to have a body like
Goran Ivanisevic

They try to shape you, twist and contort you
Skeleton keys are much more reliable
Chip, chip away at you, chip, chip away at you
They try to shape you, twist and contort you
Skeleton keys are much more reliable
Chip, chip away at you, chip chip chip away at you
You’re growing tits like Alan Turing

Wasting hours of my time doing star jumps in the gym
All to have, all to have a body like him
Wasting hours of my time doing star jumps in the gym
All to have, all to have a body like
Goran Ivanisevic

He tried, he failed
He failed, he tried

Goran Ivanisevic, it’s time, I think, to make that switch
No masquerade in self-belief, Goran Ivanisevic
Goran Ivansisevic, you tried and failed, iconoclastic!
No masquerade for self-belief, Goran Ivanisevic

Delusion Angel

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

pink sky

daydream delusion
limousine eyelash
oh baby with your pretty face
drop a tear in my wineglass
look at those big eyes on your face
see what you mean to me
sweet cakes and milk shakes
I'm a delusion angel
I'm a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
don't want you to guess anymore
you have no idea where I came from
we have no idea where we're going
lodged in life like branches in a river
flowing downstream
caught in the current
I'll carry you you carry me
that's how it could be
don't you know me
don't you know me by now

Delusion Angel, written for the film by the poet David Jewell

photo credit: nina leigh