Lost in Translation

Saturday, October 21, 2017

Lost in Translation

Charlotte: I just don't know what I'm supposed to be.

Bob: You'll figure that out. The more you know who you are, and what you want, the less you let things upset you.

Three weeks ago, I was feeling dazed, lost and confused. Now I feel like I have more direction than I've ever had in my life. The feeling is liberating and exhilarating to know that I don't feel hopeless anymore. Maybe it's because I have a birthday coming up and this time of the year, I always feel acutely aware of my existence. Which is why I made my short film Shyness.

Lost in Translation reminds me that no matter at what age, we all get a little lost in life. People, jobs, things come and go out of our life. The earth is spinning at a million miles an hour (1000-miles an hour to be more accurate or 30 kilometers per second) and it's hard to let go of the past and live in the now and predict the future. Therefore, it's almost exhausting to have that acute level of self awareness and introspection. My brain has been activated and there is no off switch. So I'll just channel myself and write myself into submission. Studies show humans use 10% of the brain, but right now, I feel like my brain is so stimulated, it's on overdrive.

I need to slow down... before I crash.

Funny, Lucy (dir. Luc Besson) is played by Scarlett Johansson. Maybe I am somehow connected to her. I love Lost in Translation, Her, Scoop and I just recently re-watched He's Just Not That Into You and Match Point for research purposes. Why does she keep getting cast as the "other woman". Granted her filmography is very diverse and I appreciate her badass female roles, but I wouldn't want a reputation for playing the other woman/adulterer type. Well, she doesn't care what I have to say... I should re-watch Ghost World, I haven't seen it since boarding school. I remember connecting with all the characters. I love that feeling when a story and the characters resonate with you on a personal level. I miss that kind of moviegoing experience.

Now that I'm in a much better mental state, I can start to pick up the pieces. I will slowly put everything back together and hopefully form a more solid puzzle. Life is a giant puzzle and it's easy to break everything apart, but our endurance and perseverance is what makes us unique as individuals. I refuse to be a quitter, but I have to care for myself, before I lose myself completely to something that isn't worth it. I am strong and I will fight for my beliefs, morals, principles, because I want to be a decent human being with integrity. #whyislifeworthliving