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Before/After

Saturday, December 17, 2011

before
after

After my chaotic, hectic and completely stressful experience with 2nd AD-ing a feature, I was completely drained physically, mentally and emotionally. It was a fucking amazing experience overall, but there were times when I felt like it's the end of the world, but the reality is that there is real shit going on in the world and sometimes making a film is not really that important. Filmmaking is my chosen path in life and I know I will be making my own films, but I have to remind myself that there are more important news in the world and sometimes I have to stop for a second to remember that.

Anyways, by the end of the shoot, I was so burnt out spiritually and emotionally - I was sleep deprived, not eating well, my health was the last thing on my mind. After the film wrapped, I made the decision to just go for it and chop off a year's worth of hair (growing). The first photo indicates how much my hair has grown since January till now. But after 6 p.m. today - Gone. GONE. It feels like all this "weight" has been lifted off my shoulders and I can finally breathe again. Another bizarre reasoning behind this spontaneous decision was that I do everything for myself. I dress the way I do for myself. I cut my hair for myself. I'm all about me now and I don't do anything for men or getting attention from men. 99% of men prefer women with long hair. In that case, chop off my hair, thank you! It's not like short hair on women is unconventional nowadays, but I've always loved short hair and admired my favorite pixie haired ladies: Jean Seberg, Mia Farrow, Twiggy, Michelle Williams, Audrey Tautou, Carey Mulligan, Emily Browning, Agyness Deyn, etc. I've had short hair (again) since 2008, so getting a drastic hair cut isn't a big deal to me. I just want to feel confident and liberated and spontaneous and this is what a simple hair cut can do for a woman. Goodbye hair, see you next time!

10 comments:

  1. Ohh my, your new hair looks stunning! And I love all of short hair women you mentioned <3

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  2. The hair looks perfect! :O :) and I hope that nowyou will have time for everything :)!

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  3. your new hair cut is wonderful. I used to have really long hair and I cut it all off because a) it was insanely unhealthy and b) I wanted to look "elfin"/resemble Sara Quin :)

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  4. gorgeous! glad to hear that you're taking the necessary steps to care of yourself!

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  5. Love it! Avalonne you look gorgeous!
    xoxox

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  6. Last semester, I cut off about seven inches of hair, and it's been growing out since then. However, it was chin length and this last week I cut it well to ear length. And I absolutely love it. There's something so freeing about short hair and you look absolutely fantastic with it. :)

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  7. Ah it looks awesome! I just got mine all chopped off again after a short attempt at growing it out (very short). I realized I like it short, and I don't really care what anyone else thinks, gentlemen included.

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  8. Great move, that hair really suits you. I've been wanting to get a pixie cut for ages, but just haven't mustered up enough cash or confidence. I'm learning how little being appealing to men matters, as well. :) Mutual friend of Caro here.

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  9. ahhhh short hair always looks good on you (:

    i've been wanting to chop my hair off for a really long time but i'm such a chicken, haha.

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  10. I love the hair cut. I'm just waiting for my hair to grow out.
    I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. I hope all is well now.

    Happy Holidays to you.
    x

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